i live in the stupidiest timeline possible and yet and i am happy

back when i first watched All of twin peaks this february, before i reached Season 3 i thought about how nice it would have been to be 18–20 years old when it first aired, to witness every episode live and just be mesmerized and amazed at how the history of art and television was changing right in front of my eyes. i day(night)dreamed of how my life would have been back then, the people that i’d met and the lifestyle that would have carried me over. if i had been 22 when twin peaks first aired, i’d be 50 years old now and then i thought of the woman i could have dated, the conversations we’d have about twin peaks back then.

the thing about twin peaks is that it truly changed television forever and our brains are now incredibly stupid to fully appreciate it. at least culturally speaking. we have euphoria and game of thrones and abc and cbs and netflix and amazon prime and disney plus poisioning our stupid little brains, making them smaller by the minute without any sort of art to truly nurture it. of course there are shows like fleabag, barry, succession, and… that’s pretty much it isn’t it. even then, most people watch them without truly taking them in. many of friends haven’t been able to stand more than three or four episodes of succession because “it didn’t grab them”, as if having the best acting perfomances of the history of television right in front of their eyes isn’t enough. as if a candle burning bright, masterfully untangling how family trauma and class and capitalism is all that we will ever be as a society isn’t enough for their brains to consume. everything else is trash and amazes our little minds by providing the serotonin dose we have grown so used to. it’s as if we are prisoners of the media and entertainment we consume is the guardian that keeps us stupid and braindead. because even with shows like ted lasso, it’s about feeling “good”, not about thinking. not about appreciating the medium in front of you, not about considering television as a serious medium that can teach you something. and don’t even get me started on euphoria for god’s fucking sake.

the thing is that i know i’m probably missing some shows in my list of products that are not making us fucking idiots. los espookys, reservation dogs, just to name a few. but then, we have shows that pretend to be “high art”, that tell a story with a cliffhanger and decent acting but nothing else, truly. shows like peaky blinders, the queen’s gambit, etc. you know the drill. and then, we also have what chomsky would love to call, the propaganda machine such as ALL the marvel shows, SQUID GAMES and everything that perpetuates the message of capitalism and american values without even considering any options outside of this stupid little world. i will never fucking understand why or how squid games became so successful with people still hating amlo for the wrong reasons, still being so anti-abortion while not caring about the lives of the so-called babies once they are born, still loving their little stupid 9 to 5s and you know, just being overall puppets of the machine.

but anyways.

the thing that i truly wanted to write today before i went on my little rant against our fucking brain dead society, is that i really wanted to watch twin peaks live. to experience it as it was happening. that was one of my first thoughts when the first dream sequence of agent cooper happens, “how amazing would it have been to turn your tv and then SEE THAT LIVE?” and i think now i have the answer.

this season of atlanta is nothing short of groundbreaking, of truly a once in a generation kind of deal. i am now speechless, amazed and anything that i will write to describe the experience that the past nine weeks have been will not do justice to the masterful season of television that donald glover and his team have crafted. the difficult (which are only difficult for white and stupid rich people) conversations that it inspires, how the audience is sooooo divided because they were expecting a kooky, weird tv show after a four-year absence. i don’t know. it’s all to much. as much as i love succession, i do not think any modern tv show gets close to atlanta now. it’s in a completely different level. the thing about succession is that the writers and actors are doing something straight out of shakespeare’s book, telling a story in the subtext and not telling you to your face what exactly is going on. i guess that’s why it’s so hard for the simpletons to get attached to it. there are barely any cliffhangers, but leaves you thinking for daaaays if you pay attention to the acting and everything that leads to certain scenes.

but atlanta man, that’s just what i wanted to experience when i wanted to travel back in time to watch twin peaks live. i now know what it is to have a True Piece of Art, a Fucking Sculpture of Our Society right in front of my eyes to consume and let myself be taken in a journey of how deep racism is rooted in our society. after season one, donald glover said that he wanted to make twin peaks with rappers, but now it’s so so so so so so much more than that now. it’s something our world has never seen before, and i can’t wait for future generations to truly appreciate it as it deserves to, because god knows we are too fucking stupid as a culture to do so right now. maybe i am being too hopeful in thinking that in 10–20–30 years, people will look at it as we watch twin peaks now, that our future generations will not be even stupidier than we are now, that their brains will not function in only euphoria terms.

but maybe, just maybe, there is an 18 yr old watching atlanta right now, getting inspired to craft something that can beat it as donald glover did when he watched twin peaks. maybe, just maybe, there will be a tv network willing to take the risk on a tv show like that in the future. and then the thread will continue, then that generation will know about atlanta and see how ahead of its time it was.

and then, maybe, just maybe, all the pain and loneliness i feel by being mostly surrounded by people that do not understand me and do not wish to do so, will be gone. maybe i will finally be able to talk about my favorite shows and movies with most people without them thinking that i am some sort of a pretentious asshole. i just love art and what it represents because it has saved my life. i’m sorry entertainment and being a dumbass has saved yours.

meh. we do deserve to die as a species relatively soon.